..on the job front. i'm getting pretty impatient and perhaps a bit depressed. i don't understand why i'm not getting hired by anyone..especially considering the fact that i've been a workoholic for the past six years. i get to work an hour before anyone else. i have gone over and beyond my duties. i've sponsored clubs, organized field trips, and initiated new programs. whenever the district needed anyone to author curricula, i was the go-to person.
i know that i don't interview well. i despite those "scenario" questions. i take time to think things through and i know that i don't come up with any impressive responses on the spot.
i just had my third jumpstart interview today. my second interview with i.e.a. in pasadena is tomorrow.
i'm just frustrated. i hate the fact that my boyfriend and all of his lazy friends don't have to work hard because they've inherited property. i hate the fact that i wake up every morning in a shitty apartment. this morning a poisoned cockroach was staring up at me. i hate the fact that i've done everything i've been told to do, yet i still fall short. i was told to study and work hard in school. i graduated summa cum laude. i had a job lined up before i graduated...with a so-called prestigious and highly regarded corps that hasn't done a thing for my current employment situation. i got a master's degree from the second best education graduate school in the country. i know that i sound stupid and bratty and that maybe i shouldn't feel so "entitled." i just feel bad that my parents sacrificed everything and that now i'm in this predicament. i don't come anywhere close to enjoying their standard of living. when they were my age they had 2 kids and a house. i don't feel that i have anything. i have a stupid boyfriend that can't commit to anything beyond renting shitty movies and eating and napping all of the time. i just feel like i deserve more. i just want to disappear sometimes.
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